And so did it all begin. Three months ago LTA was born. Out of nowhere I was sitting with my laptop in my lap typing my first post that was marking the beginning of what I now regard as a journey of a lifetime. And here I am today, on Sunday morning rubbing my eyes, struggling to believe that ?Letters to Antoinette? has actually reached 700 followers while I was cuddled under the duvet. I do feel truly blessed and this is all because of you for which I’ll never be able to thank you enough.
You know, lovely reader, only a few years ago I thought that love was what made people truly happy. Today, I realise that it is only a piece of the whole puzzle called ?life?. It is indeed an essential one, but in no ways the only one. Actually I was recently told that ?we (the people) too often rely on ?love? to fulfil our own concept of ?self?. A few words, which believe it or not, made me jump for joy.
But let’s not get ahead of ourselves.
A week ago B. made a huge romantic gesture towards me having previously planned a holiday for the two of us in the Dominican Republic. A much-needed holiday, which I was anticipating similarly to the way a little kid waits for his Sunday candy and ice-cream. Having maintained a relationship at distance from the very beginning, we surely needed some alone time together, away from the city lights, loud noises, never-ending chatter, chaos, all of it.
And yet, there I was sunbathing and talking to my new ?online? friends. I was taking photos and keeping posted everyone who was contacting me while I was away. Meanwhile, B. was reading a book, having left his phone in the hotel room ? ?No connection to this number? was all that his callers could hear.
While typing down this post I realise how annoying my behaviour probably seemed to him. Though I was doing my best to disregard the existence of a WIFI connection ? well, I never really managed to do so.
And I suppose B. was a bit anxious at first with all this ?blogging?
being thrown randomly in between the words of every other conversation we had.
And to be honest if I were him, I?d have probably felt the same. But with the
hours passing and days rolling by really fast I finally got it ? since I?ve
started blogging the suffocating and claustrophobic feelings which were often creeping under my skin were finally completely gone. Vanished. For good. Instead, I?ve
started to thrive and so has my very understanding of life and the way I should
live it. I do have a true love in my life, but so have I discovered what my unique life
calling is. And both of them now seem equally important, the combination of
which makes my lips curve in an upward direction every single day.
And though at the beginning while I was asking B. to take some photos of me before our ?dinner dates? I was feeling as if I was doing something wrong (you know ruining our time together by asking him to ?do work? while being on a holiday) now I think him and I are finally okay with it all. And when I was exposed to the words, I cited earlier, well, my outlook was affirmed. This petite/grand quote reminded me that being truly happy requires more than someone standing by your side. Having your own direction, unique path to follow will make your ‘self’ more content and alive than ever.
And I think B. also got it all, holding the camera and snapping some photos before we headed to our lovely Japanese dinner. Ah, after the ?sushi appetiser? B. and I were sipping champagne, laughing out loud while watching a spectacular ?food show? that was being unwrapped before our astonished eyes.
Yes, I was with my boyfriend on a date, yet wearing my ?boyfriend jeans?, bright pink lipstick, and oversized necklace all of which inspired by my blogger friends. Yes, two months ago, lacking much confidence, I’d have never come up with the idea of walking around in an outfit like this, cautious not to make myself look shorter. But look at me now all dressed up in a pair of boyfriend jeans not really bothered about my height. Of course, a pair of stilettos did certainly help visually lengthen my legs.
P.S. Thanks to ‘Letters to Antoinette’ just before we left for our vacation in Punta Cana I met Katie from www.scarphelia.com (one of my all-time favourite bloggers) and her lovely friend Floss. Our first ?offline? encounter took place in NYC though none of us are originally from the City (yes, life with its weird ways). And Floss did mention something about my ?sophisticated black look?? Ah, it was more of a ?You do like your black, don?t you?? Well, I did like it, but today I?m going ?white, bright, and happy?. And I?ve banned myself from purchasing and wearing black so, lovely girls, you won?t be seeing much darkness of me anymore. And to be honest it was maybe precisely when B. started noticing to all these little positive changes when he was no longer bothered by my never-ending blogging talks. And he does encourage me to keep going no matter how many photos he has to take of me a day.
For those of you who wonder what I’ve chosen wear on our Japanese dinner date:
Boyfriend jeans: H & M
Tank Top: Forever 21
Nude Stilettos: Forever 21
Bag: Michael Kors
Lipstick: All Fired it up
Oversized necklace: H & M
PPS: A quick reminder LTA’s 500 Followers Jo Malone Giveaway is currently going on here. So lovely, make sure to participate and win a scented Jo Malone Candle ‘Sweet Almond & Macaroon’. Good Luck!